Dear reader, 

I have a confession. I need to ask your forgiveness. I’ve been afraid. I’ve allowed fear to stop me from telling the full truth of all that’s happened on the World Race. I’ve given you a tame version of the wild God I serve. 

I’ve shared stories of the amazing things, the beautiful things, the natural things that God has done. But oh, He has been and done so much more. Many uncomfortable, unexplainable things. Things I don’t know how you will take... 

Will you judge me for telling you that I’ve held the gaze of a demon looking at me from within a man and felt my own fear rival the power of Jesus’ name as I spoke it over and over in my mind? Will you think I’ve dived off the deep end if I told you that our squad spent over 7 hours getting baptized in the Holy Spirit and praying over each other in a bathtub in Guatemala? What would you think if you heard that we laid hands on someone and they were healed? What about if I told you that we battled and cast evil spirits out of our living spaces? 

Reader, this life with God is WILD! 

In the words of Mr. Tumnus in Narnia, “He is good, but He is not tame.”

If you had asked me about these things before the World Race...about the Holy Spirit, about spiritual gifts, about demons and angels...I would’ve told you that I believed in them. Yet, they were distant to me. Theoretically, they were true, but, were they really? Doubt still claimed space within me. 

No longer. 

I’ve seen signs and wonders that can only be explained in the supernatural. I’ve heard tongues and interpretations that only come from the Holy Spirit. I’ve been overwhelmed to the point of weakness and tears when I felt a fraction of the heartbreak God feels for His beloved lost children. I’ve heard words of prophecy spoken and witnessed them come true. I’ve seen visions of demons, angels, and God’s presence with me. 

Again, I ask. I beg. Please, please forgive me for dimming the brilliance of God’s glory. The wondrous fire of His Holy Spirit. The ever-present love of Jesus. 

Living life with this Holy Trinity is indescribably more than I could ever have imagined. I feel more alive, more consumed with fiery passion, and more loved than ever before. I can no longer hide what I’ve experienced to be true. If you think I’m a freak, you’re probably right. 

Be warned, I plan on only getting freakier for Jesus.

If my stories scare you or make you cringe, I’m not sorry. Christianity isn’t meant to be comfortable. The Bible isn’t G rated. I can’t force you to believe or accept all these things. You can choose to judge me or ignore what I say. I only pray that you will open your heart to what God is speaking to you. 

I had to personally experience it to truly believe life could be like this. Maybe you will too. That’s okay. Just please, give Him a chance to show you. 

All my love and prayers, 

Victoria L. Groves the Jesus Freak