Get Wrecked

     My squad started using the phrase “get wrecked” in joking and teasing. For example, when someone lost a game or their digestive system didn’t handle the street food very well. If you hung around us, you would probably hear, “Get wrecked!” hollered out along with laughter. It was funny. 

     Then, as God started turning our hearts and lives upside down and inside out (yet again), the phrase took on a deeper meaning. Get wrecked by God. In this application, it’s said with reverence and a knowing smile. All 31 of us have experienced it in one way or another by now… 

• The demolishing of walls and lies we’ve built up… 
• The replacing of our false beliefs and incomplete picture of Him with the truth of who He really is… 
• The overwhelming love of His father’s heart not only for us, but for each of His children across the earth… 
• The breaking of chains to addictions and attachments… 
• The experience of hearing the Holy Spirit confirm His words within us… 

     I FOR SURE have been wrecked in numerous and necessary ways! He shattered the box I had kept Him in and showed me glimpses of just how great He is. He stripped me of my attachment to control. He showed me that He sees me and knows me intimately. He filled my heart to overflowing with His unconditional love for me. He called me His princess. 

     I feel like I’ve been through spiritual heart surgery. I see the world differently now. Not as clearly as I still hope to someday, but I see at least a little more like the way He views the world. I’ve seen His power work miraculously as we have prayed over people and situations. I’ve wept in a park surrounded by my teammates as my heart broke with a new understanding of His love for His lost children, His other princes and princesses – the crippled man selling bracelets to survive, the refugees seeking a safe haven, the addicts laying out on the steps, and the woman possessed by darkness. I’ve seen fear flee and supernatural peace flow down. 

     It’s truly wild. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it feels like falling out of a plane and getting run over by a train. But somehow, it’s always so unimaginably good. There’s nothing like life with God. Other than His faithfulness, I honestly never know what to expect. 

Like a couple days ago when He asked me to stay out for the full 11 months.

     Remember how I said I’d only stay out for 5 months? Well, turns out He’s a funny God with plans that are not my own. 

     I could give you a list of reasons for why I still want to come home in May. However, along with some other confirmations, He revealed to me that I need to stay in this atmosphere and continue learning, pruning, and growing for a while longer. I feel like a tiny sprout in a greenhouse. I’m not quite ready to leave this protected environment where life on mission is natural alongside 30 other passionate young adults.  

So, I’m saying, “Yes!” once again. 

Yes to releasing control over and over again. 

Yes to diving ever deeper into the fullness of faith and relationship with my Papa. 

Yes to traveling around the world until and telling His children of His unimaginably great love for them. 

Yes to whatever adventures, lessons, or trials He has in store.

Yes to getting wrecked a little more each day. 

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Are you ready to get wrecked too? 
I hope so, because it comes when you least expect it!

P.S. I promise I have updates and stories coming from the last month. We finished our time in Chichicastenango, reunited with the whole squad in Antigua for training and debrief, and will head out for Costa Rica tomorrow. It’s been a wild ride, but so incredible!